WOOOOHOOOO~~~~

Dolls & Fellas.....

Ive been stuffing my face wif yong tau foo and lying around my cozy lil bed....Yes...IM back in KUALA LUMPUR....home of my heart!!!

So becoz of that i was unable to post any shit up my blog...too busy preparing for my 21st bday recently....too busy hangin aroung...too busy kissing and smuching my bf and seeing my family and frens that ive not seen.....

Anyways...i shall update you ppl on my daily event!!chiao chiao for now!!!

MUAAXXXXX!!!!!

I DO NOT WANT TO SIT AND CRY ANYMORE!
ITS JUST TO HURTFUL AND PAINFUL

I sat in the bed trying to tell myself not to cry anymore but i cudnt. The more i told myself to stop the more it keeps flowing. I then stood up and went to the toilet to wash my face. Instead of ignoring the reflection of myself, i stood there and stare at myself. Why do i have to cry?Why does it hurts so bad when he say hurtful things to me?

Looking at how horrible the stake im in, tears starts to flow down again.

I cudnt sleep there in after, toosing and turning was all i did and finally i gave up.

"I cudnt help to think of what you said to me last night. All those words that utter from you kept running through my mind. Was it all true of what happen?Is it true on every word you said?Do you hate me?Have I done wrong by not hearing the phone ring when i was rushing myself to dry my hair for you?"

"You have never done this to me before and i do not know whether you really meant every word you say to me but among other blunt word you have said to me in the past i can accept but this time your words hurts soo much it bleeds."

Is it true that you do not care about me?Is it  true that you ask me to walk away from this?

All i can do is only to cry and keep things aside and not cause any problem. I love him so much that little things he do to me affect me in a huge way. He makes me cry when im happy and he makes me cry when im sad.

What i can do is always cry myself to temporary ease away the aching heart and hurt. I do not know how to tell you and im afraid we might argue and i do not want that to happen.

Shud I take every word he say for real?

Im lost and hurt...................................................................................

1. Does anyone know your password to
your email?
Yes i suppose....   

2. What was the last thing you ordered
at McDonalds?
Big mac!

3. Are you an emotional person?
YES....pretty much

4. Do you like your name?
Y not.....lolz

5. Do you believe in love at first
sight?
At times yes....

6. Ever felt jealous of your friend?
No...whatever for

7. What was the last thing you did?
Talk on the phone with laogong

8. Who is right next to you?
None...how sad

9. Who was the last person you ate
with?
Aileen, wk and kyle

10. What song are you listening to
right now?
Love you more each day by jacky cheung

11. How's the weather right now?
Cold....14degress!

12. Last person who called you today?
Laogong...

14. Last song you sang?
Jessica simpson I belong to me

15. Last time you cried?
Cant remember......

16. Lost a friendship over something
stupid?
Dunno remember...bt havent lost any good friendship at the moment

18. Last thing you ate?
Hot steak pie

19. Been really depressed before?
Yes....

20. Faked being sick to miss school?
YES/./....lolz...many times!

21.What time did u wake up today?
12pm

22. Current taste?
Wat current taste?

23. Who is the person that posted this
survey?
Stephanie

24. What are you wearing right now?
A black top and a short pants

25. Are you too shy to ask anyone out?
Sometimes depending on the situation

26. What is the first thing you notice
about the opposite sex?
The looks

27. Where are you right now?
At home in melbourne

29. Did you go anywhere today?
Yes...to stupid UNI!

30. What did you do there?
Had a design tutorial crit with my lecturer

31. How old are you?
almost 21!!

33. Are you mature or immature?
Im in between of both i wud say....no one is fully mature!

34. Do you call your parents by their
first name?
No....we're not americans duh!

35. Are you an only child?
Nope

36. Where do you go shopping?
EVERYWHERE...than can satisfy my urge to shop

37. Do you like where you work?
I dont work/..//haha

38. Do you like books?
Yes///.....

39. Any Plans for tomorrow?
Nope not at the moment

40. Current Emotional status?
Happy....!!and sleepy

41. Current Mental status?
Whats mental status?......

42. Current Financial Status?
Normal la...

43. Any Plans for Christmas?
Yes....go holiday with laogong

44. Your Dreams for the future?
To be married and have 3kids

45. What are going to do after this?
Sleep!

Once u have read it....copy and paste in the comment page and edit ur survey...wanna read it too...lolz

Have u had someone who can make u cry so much and yet your love for them grows even stronger? 

Well i have someone who i love so much and yet he can make me cry just a clap of a hand. Its not EMO but sometimes i wonder myself how he does it. Like they always say...LOVE is a wonderful thing isnt it? Love can make u sacrifies so many things in life, trying to be the best for the other person and always trying to make them happy. The last thing that you ever want to see is to ever see them cry. And how can guys usually look at their other half crying and dont feel anything?Does seeing us girls cry can make an impact to them?How wud guys feel deep inside?Often i found guys numbless when they see girls cry and some just run away not wanting to see it.

I have never been so patient in my life and sometimes i look at myself, I can be so impatient with others but when it comes with my other half i can be so patient that it amazed me on how i wud react to situation. Isnt it how wonderful what LOVE can do to you...its an amazing thing that no one wud ever understand.

So back to my question.....Can love reshape who u are to be someone that is better or for worst?Can Love make u cry so much and make u hurt so much and yet u still stay strong with love and still be in love?

                    HAPPY 5TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY LAOGONG!!
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Can u belive it?!its our 5th month anniversary.Gosh how time flies....its been 5months since ive been wif laogong....and ive never been happier in my life.

Lets start by saying I knew Jonas back in highschool but NEVER talked to him!He was this girls-to-die-for kinda guy and he and i was pretty much in our own world. After 7 or 8 years since the last i saw him, On November 2006 i met him.

That night was something i will never forget. I was with my bestie and my bro @ nailiis having a drink and i invited him over. Interestingly enuff he came~.B4 he arrived i constanly ask my fren how did i look and was i OK. So there we were chatting away bt my eyes were scanning at the sight of him to c if he has arrived.

The moment i saw him walking toward us...My heart suddenly skips a beat and i was nervous! i duno why i was feelin that way but i kept my cool. Throughout the whole night he was just there wif his smokes and i can tell he was looking at me most of the time...Again i kept my cool!lolz.....The most embarassing thing happened was after the drinking part, when i was driving out from nailis, my car went up to curb.To be even more embaress....HE SAW THE WHOLE SHIT!~~

Tht was it i suppose...things from there on was pretty much intereting....the whole chatting, flirting, countless of sms and msn, dates...u name it....

From that moment i saw him after such a long time, I knew he was the one i want to share my love wif...You just dont have ur heart skips a beat like that for no eiffing reason ok!...lolz....

So our 1st and 2nd anniversary was special.It was nothin fantastic but it was a start to our relationship. My 3rd and 4th was our little secret....I was in melbourne at that time but he manage to make me smile and it constantly reminded me how much i really really do love him forevr and always. It was worth everything in the world.

And today is our 5th month anniversary...I know its not 5th year but it does feel like it ok!?It felt like i knew him forever....~~~Not a day goes witout me thinking how blessed am i to have jonas as a part of my life and he completed my other half in life. He's my everything!

So...here's a little token of our 5th month anniversary.

My life in melbourne is pretty sucky.....
Its bored and its BORED!
The only time i think i had a life is when i have to go classes to uni other than that i just stay at home and stare at the ceilling. So what when u do when ur bored?lolz.....BLOG!!

                      41 DAYS TILL IM HOME TO MY DARLING ARMS

Its amazing how ur heart and ur mind and soul cud miss someone so much and even without seeing them visually and touching them visually, your love still grows stronger and stronger each and everyday. You may not realise it how much ur heart grows for that someone in a day, Its the most magical thing no one can understand and ask why. It just grows....and the best part is you cant stop it!

This special feeling is something that no words can decribe how much we love for that someone and there are no words to even speak why we love them.

Ive often been in relationships or flings fallen in and out of love but this time is different. My mum used to tell me...ur heart,soul and mind will tell u if he's the one for u. She say she dunno how to explain to me but somehow we will know and sense it. I didnt really quite understand what she meant of that feeling and sense but i finally found the answer to that statement she tells me.

IVE FOUND THE ONE. It beyond words and imagination to tell you how can u sense this but mark my word...one day you will sense this feeling that he is the one and you can see ur future with him and seeing urself being with him through thick and thin and having kids wif him and arggghhh.....lots more that i cant list down.

I have never had this feeling before and this feeling is soo soo different from whatever i had in my past. He's special, he's loving he's my everything but most importantly...he's the one that i want to spend the rest of my life with.

Azza azza fighting!!

I came across this site...and well im a JULY baby and it says alot of me though...haha...so here's a thought....~~~


JANUARY BABY

Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored.
Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to
recover when hurt. Sensitive.Down-to-Earth.
Stubborn.

FEBRUARY BABY

Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract.
Intelligent and clever. Changing personality.
Attractive. sexiest out of everyone.Temperamental.
Quiet, shy and humble. Honestand loyal. Determined
to reach goals. Lovesfreedom. Rebellious when
restricted. Lovesaggressiveness. Too sensitive and
easily hurt.Gets angry really easily but does not show it.
Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends
but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn.
Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp.
Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the
inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous.
Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH BABY

attractive personality. sexy. Affectionate Shy and
reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous
and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity.
Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered.
Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness.
Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up
feelings. Observant and assesses others.

APRIL BABY

Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous.
Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and
sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does
work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive.
Positive Attitude.Thinking generous. Good memory.
Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information.
Able to cheer evryone up and/ormake them laugh.
Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding.
Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality.
Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and
traveling. Systematic. hott but has brains.

MAY BABY

born and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and
highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered.
Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings.
Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint.
Needs no motivation. Shy towards oppisite sex.
Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to
dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding.
Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good
imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves
literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike
being at home. Restless. Not having many children.
Hardworking. High spirited.

JUNE BABY

You've got the best personality and are an
absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make
new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt
and more than likely have an a very attractive
partner. a wicked hottie. It is also more than likely
that you have a massive record collection. You
have a great choice in films, and may one day
become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck,
you've got the looks for it!!!

JULY BABY

Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to
be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed.
Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily
consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's
feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable.
Emotional temperamental and unpredictable.
Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at
times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets.
dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things.
Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive
and forms impressions carefully. Caring and
loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of
sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people
through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties
in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods
about the past and the old friends. Waits for
friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive
unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt
but takes long to recover.

AUGUST BABY

outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on
attention. no self control. kind hearted. self confident.
loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. easy to get along
with and talk to. has an "every thing's peachy" attitude.
likes talking and singing. loves music. daydreamer.
easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination.
loves to be loved. hates studying. in need of "that someone".
longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or restricted.
lives by "no pain no gain" caring. always a suspect. playful.
mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn.
curious. independent. strong willed. a fighter.

SEPTEMBER BABY

Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends
to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself.
Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic.
Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems.
Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and
caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have
many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional.
Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates
oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore.
Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can
understand. if you do not repost this in the next 5
mins, someone very close to you will become mad
at you in the next 8 days.

OCTOBER BABY

Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves
to takes things at the center. Inner and physical
beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry
often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and
fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but
recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does
not care to control emotions. Unpredictable.
Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND
sexiest of them all.

NOVEMBER BABY

Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and
dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun.
Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards
your inner and outer beauty and independent
personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional
and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people
easily and very social in a group. Fearless and
independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a
crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the
greatest men are born in this month. If you ever
begin a relationship with someone from this month,
hold on to them because
their one of a kind.

DECEMBER BABY

This straight-up means ur the most good-looking
person possible... better than all of these other
months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive
in everything. Active in games and interactions.
Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in
organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to,
though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision,
yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by
kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of
ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to
delay. Choosy and always wants the best.
Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to
joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone
always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer.
Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding.
Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of
person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting
colds. loves music. pretty/handsome. Loves to
dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows
emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive.

Its damn cold today!freaking cold!!!!.........
anyways today i went uni and i finally got my lecture to like my design!
Im so happy...gonna work hard now so that i can do a good job this semester.
Anyways i just realise its 27 more days till my big submission which i can DIE!...but on the other hand it makes time flies very very fast.So anxious to go home back to KL....

Miss the chicken rice, bah kut teh DURIAN.....and well i dont miss the hot weather thought...I MISS KLCC & pasar malam!....laogong promise me he will take me to kim gary once i reach KL and go pasar malam also!!hehe...cant wait la...so much to do back in kl but i only got one month there....:( sniff sniff....

Anyways this whole 3 weeks i must GAMBATE...to do work!cannot procrastinate at all!! NOPE NOPE...cannot do that!hehehe

Oh well manda's here...wanna go to max brenners to eat chocolate belgium waffle....
will update pics soon!!~
ciao for now...

You know you love me.